Consolation prize

for vocoder & chamber orchestra, 8-10″ (2022). / 1.1.1 / perc(2) / piano / strings (2.1.1 + electric bass)

About the work:
It’s incredibly frustrating that being your most genuine self
Or becoming who you want to be
Is so often incompatible with what you find comfortable

I’m terrified of heights, but I love flying
Every time I ascend, I think
“is this worth it
if we crash, was this worth it”
I never find the answer, and it never gets easier

But I couldn’t live with myself if I didn’t try again
Each time, not trying again becomes less of an option


‘Consolation prize’ was commissioned for Alarm Will Sound by the Mizzou International Composers Festival (2022.)